TIGERS JAW - I WAS NEVER YOUR BOYFRIEND

if you called me and asked for his name

or if you called for his number

the worst part of my existence is your best friends forever

but your in bands together

and i’m not getting better

i’m just feeling sick

so much time went on and i’m just finding out about this

and if you see me looking bad

or if you see me better

the worst part of my existence is you can call whenever

but i can’t wait forever

LIFE LONG TRAGEDY - YOUTH

peeling through the layers, where the fuck have the years gone?

‘87 to right now, i lost myself inside the fog.

afraid we’ll have to amputate all your wasted dialogues

wearing my suburban frown,

i let my body drown.

lost track of the resilience that once helped me from falling down.

don’t carry my casket, throw my ashes to the wind.

begin the culmination.

they say good things come with age

cancer, finances, jobs with shitty pay

disdain for my coming of age.

wisdom’s a prisoner to my pent up rage.

comfort in sins tuck me into my death bed.

peeling through the layers, where the fuck have the years gone?

‘87 to right now, i lost myself inside the fog.

afraid we’ll have to amputate all your wasted dialogues.

been depressed about the adult crash.

yeah, i never thought i’d be tricked like that.

for all i know still got a ways to go

until i’m leaving for good and aint lookin’ back.

bottom of the deepest ocean,

wasn’t quite what I was hopin’.

old wounds found ways to reopen,

leaving me confused.

victims of imagination,

do my best to fight persuasion.

don’t know if i have the patience

to wait it out and maybe bloom.

RISE AND FALL - FAITH / FATE

faith misplaced now faith’s disgraced. still hoping against hope things will change. hoping against hope, in my own sick way. 

dear love, these are the strangest times. it was never enough, you were never, never mine. glued together but meant to fall apart. it couldn’t be forever, it couldn’t be anything at all. 

from this day on, from this day forward. now longer shall i wait, to master my own fate. from this day on, from this day forward. behold the bridges i set ablaze. 

so long these hands, they were tied. numb to the touch, a sullen prey to fate’s design. glued together but meant to fall apart. it couldn’t be forever, it couldn’t be anything at all. 

torn at the seams. 

love for the loveless. hope for the hopeless. faith for the faithless. speech for the speechless.